| Baby is three months old. |
[May. 24th, 2007|09:02 pm] |
I survived labor. I don't remember the last half of it. but what i do remember wasn't so great. The epidural worked pretty much not at all. It made me coherent enough when I wasn't having a contraction to apologize for how dramatic i was when i was having one. The weirdest thing was the pain stopped the minute the baby was out. The most excruciating pain i've ever felt and BAM, it was done. And there she was.
My Justice is perfect. She didn't even look like an alien. That weirded me out. i was expecting an alien baby. they all look like aliens...but not Justice.
She's growing like crazy and she's very long! 27 inches tall already. and she's laughing and smiling and just talkin away. Obviously not words, but she's very noisy. :-) Not crying, just yacking.
I could gush forever, probably, but it's pretty annoying to other people. At least, it used to get on my nerves sometimes when people's gushing goes on for too long.
we're good and happy. |
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| All the ways you are... |
[Nov. 15th, 2006|04:47 am] |
Can i just say that being pregnant is literally the weirdest thing i have ever experienced? Yeah, it's miraculous and precious and all those -ous-es. But come on, it's weird.
You got this moving thing in your belly. I myself have lost weight thus far, but now have a giant belly which is getting bigger by the damned hour. I don't mind the belly. i mind the backache.
Can't we just fast forward?
I wanna have the baby NOW!
It's a girl, by the way. We've decided to name her Justice.
We're gonna call her Jaycee when she's little. Her middle name will start with a C.
I'm pretty excited, but it's weird. you know, you think about having kids, but do you ever actually think about being pregnant? I've had some pretty scary health things. well, scary to me, anyway. anything involving my heart tends to freak me out. but i'm healthy and good. just have to take it a little easier.
She moves a lot. It's pretty funny. Loud music makes her squirm.
You know what else is interesting?
There are people who really seem to think that pregnancy, even a normal healthy one, is some kind of debilitating illness. Weird to me. Aside from being a little more tired and sore, i don't feel much different. now, if my heart freak out were to decide to go hyper, then yeah, i'd quit working. But so far, so good. and if i didn't work i'd go crazy. but people look at me like i'm crazy when i tell them i'm working.
what the hell is that? I work with four other pregnant women and they kick ass, they are so much more energetic than i am.
My doctor is all worried that there is extra stress in my life...uh, how? you know, pregnant or not, you still gotta pay bills. and you definitely have to eat. eating is way important. and milk. i must have milk. lots and lots of milk. so i work to afford the food and the milk and the bills. i don't even work all that much. mmm.
yummy milk.
i think i will go have some. |
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| ZORAK LIVES! |
[Jun. 27th, 2006|08:21 pm] |
what is zorak, you ask?
it's the weird alien bug thing on space ghost, coast to coast.
it is also the nickname for the 8 1/2 week along fetus growing in my womb.
this is good news.
because, as many of you know, there were(are?) reasons that i shouldn't be able to be doing this.
but doing it, i am. and my body feels fine and we're almost out of the woods, time wise, anyway.
ZORAK! there. i am so excited, i can't wait to get all fat and ridiculous.
i can't even hardly type.
jeez.
so much to do now, though.
things to get in order.
but for right now, this minute, i'm just going to be happy.
ZORAK! HUZZAH! |
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| just in case you thought i was kidding. |
[May. 27th, 2006|06:17 pm] |
| [ | music |
| | the sound of my stepson pulling an additude | ] |
my stepdaughter loves animals, so learned some stuff about wombats for her.
they're pretty crazy animals.
marsupials, you know. pouches and all that. they sleep in burrows during the day. night movers. crazy little buggers. |
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| INTERNET! |
[May. 24th, 2006|04:24 am] |
i have INTERNET!
i just finished reading one of my friend's journal entries and realized i missed one of my other friend's weddings. now i feel like a terrible person.
grr. but, it's late and i should get some sleep.
more later. |
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| Wow, has it been that long? |
[Apr. 23rd, 2006|12:37 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | a living room | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  hopeful | ] |
| [ | music |
| | green day? | ] |
Well, i'm back, for a minute.
I got married. it was good. i made a passable bride and i had a good time. so, that worked out then.
Not hyphenated. Still just me. haven't changed my name. brandon sees no reason for me to change my name seeing as he knows i'm his wife. the name is sort of secondary, i guess. and that's good for me. i see no reason to fix what ain't broke. if we have a kid someday, maybe i'll hyphenate then. or maybe i won't.
I'm still me. just married. and happy with that part of life. marriage is good. being a step mom to a five and a seven year old is a little strange sometimes.
i love them though. they crack me up. whatever difficulty there is, it's worth it to have them in my life. they make me think about things differently.
I hate the midwest, though. even though i have been learning a lot about myself and other people through being here. it's too flat, too catholic and too dusty.
but the fishing is good.
or so i hear, i haven't caught anything yet this year.
been reading. i have a suggestion.
i need more bookstores. businesses of bismarck, hear my plea.
more bookstores.
there is so much i want to tell you, but it isn't coming out as easy as i thought it would.
Octavia Butler DIED! jesus, man. talk about shitty. i had to find out by reading newsweek at work. no mention of it on the news here, of course. that was a crazy shock. not that i knew her, or anything. but i loved her anyway. at least the her she put into her writing. it made me sad.
I put on weight over the winter so i had to get a membership to a gym. i never thought i would do that,but seriously, the winter here is hellish. you can't do ANYTHING. blah. i hated it. and they said this winter was mild. jeez. i'd hate to see one that wasn't.
i hate my job. :-) i hate retail. old bastards yell at me daily about prices.
someday i'll lose the job for losing my cool.
I keep hoping we'll make it back home this year.
but we'll see.
anyway, i'm good, i hope you all are too.
i miss everyone.
take care |
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| 2 WEEKS! |
[Feb. 16th, 2005|12:01 am] |
AGH! so EXCITED!
must remember to breathe!
i can't even...i'm so...oh goodness!
you guys, in less than 14 days i'll be flying out there.
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EXCITED! |
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| headache from hell |
[Feb. 11th, 2005|12:34 am] |
has just decided to up and leave.
and just when i was getting so good at being a martyr, too!
thank god that's over.
well, i just finished two books by Indu Sundaresan. the twentieth wife and the feast of roses.
nice.
if you like historical fiction, you might like them.
i did.
17 more days.
and so much to do!
:-)
i am now tired and will go to sleep.
goodnight. |
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| And i'm so lonely i don't even wanna be with myself anymore... |
[Feb. 7th, 2005|10:37 am] |
nah, not really. more like i'm so busy i'd like to be someone's prized pet ferret so i could sleep in a sweatshirt.
yeah, that would be gravy.
so, how is everyone? i'm doing ok. got a lot of workin to do today. and i'm slightly tired. but that'll pass, when it comes to sleeping i'm like a cat, there is never enough to be had.
i've recently gotten on a weird music kick.
all good.
**love** |
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| Meme stolen from kevin |
[Feb. 6th, 2005|09:11 pm] |
[What were your three favorite bands?]
what? you want only three? you're insane.
[What was your favorite outfit?]
Jeans, ponytail when my hair was long enough, some t-shirt or another.
[What was up with your hair?]
long or short, infested with irregular waves.
[Who were your best friends?]
Jennifer, Jodi, Mike, JJ, Travis, Mariah, Marcia.
[What did you do after school?]
Theater, Voice lessons, choir stuff, work.
[Did you take the bus?]
first two years, yep.
[Who did you have a crush on?]
Luke Coles(very much so)
[Did you fight with your parents?]
ha. did i ever
[Who did you have a CELEBRITY crush on?]
Heh, David Duchovny
[Did you smoke cigarettes?]
not then, isn't that crazy? i made it to almost 22.
[Did you lug all of your books around in your backpack all day because you were too nervous to find your locker?]
heh, books? yeah, i used my locker.
[Did you have a 'clique'?]
Nope. I ran everywhere. my close friends belonged to all kinds of cliques and i just surfed them.
[Did you have "The Max" like Zach Kelly and Slater?]
Shari's
[Admit it, were you popular?]
Yeah fucking right. and who wanted to be, anyway? it took too much effort. but i had enough popular friends to participate in some activities and have fun.
[Who did you want to be just like?]
i don't know. i never really wanted to be "just like" anyone, i don't think.
[What did you want to be when you grew up?]
Accountant(yes, i'm serious)
[Where did you think you'd be at the age you are now?]
Finishing college. that's all. had no idea. you people plan for this future business? sheesh. |
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| Today is the first day... |
[Feb. 1st, 2005|02:11 pm] |
of the rest of your life.
**laughs**
today i have played with my nephew. outside. we ran, we played with bubbles, we played catch and he told me princesses (see: girls) can't swim.
it was hella funny. but i convinced him otherwise. well, sorta. i called in the big guns.
Grandma.
i am very tired.
but i'm feeling somewhat better. |
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| Yo, what up in the hizzy? |
[Jan. 28th, 2005|11:55 am] |
or something like it.
so, so how is everyone doing?
i am...
i am that i am. NO, i'm not god. i was just kidding. please don't start sending your prayers here, i can barely keep up on my scrapbook!
busy weekend ahead. i want to take a nap.
you know what?
i think i will.
more in depth update later.
LOVE! |
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| A conversation with the Giff |
[Jan. 27th, 2005|09:59 am] |
Me: They're talking about a five year reunion. who ARE these people? can you think of anything that would persuade you to go to that?
Giff: Uh, No.
Me: I might go to the ten...if you and ash and i went completely trashed.
Giff: I can't think of a single scenario in which i would go to our ten year reunion.
Me: What if it was on the way to where we were planning to go out and we stopped in just to wave?
Giff: Maybe.
Me: but probably not.
Giff: yeah, there's just no reason for that.
Me: agreed.
I've stayed in touch with everyone i wanted to for high school. you an blame my boundless curiosity for joining the "what you've been up to" group.
Giff kills me, she's so funny.
I got sick yesterday. it wasn't fun. i've got stuff to do and i can't afford to take ill.
33 days.
that's all. |
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[Jan. 26th, 2005|01:53 am] |
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how can something so wonderful have gotten it's start at kareoke night at the local pub? |
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| **yawns** |
[Jan. 9th, 2005|02:45 am] |
Went out. had fun.
had a few minor problems, but overall, everything was good.
happyish girl. |
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| Is anyone at ALL suprised by this answer? |
[Dec. 30th, 2004|11:44 pm] |
You are Susannah! Your tough and somewhat harsh
side is softened by your caring nature. You
feel responsible for others, and even if you
are in a worse situation than they are, you
feel it is your duty to help them first. But in
the end your fierce, stubborn spirit will help
you overcome any handicap!
The Dark Tower Character Test
brought to you by Quizilla |
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| Why i love orson scott card's historical fiction |
[Dec. 29th, 2004|11:39 pm] |
let us, for a moment, forget the man is a devout mormon and mormons scare the hell out of me.
and forget that this brandi is not, by nature, religious. though i consider myself full of faith, all this religious mombo jumbo gives me the heebie jeebies.
let's just talk about the way he writes the characters.
HUMAN!
yes, human.
his sarah, she kills me. and when she laughs at god's promise, i understand it. especially the way he writes it. lord but i love sarah. probably my favorite character in the old testament.
his rebecca, poor girl. i really do feel bad for rebecca. awful tough choices for both rebecca AND sarah. Choose the son who will have the birthright. diffcult, doncha think?
And they're selfish, and sometimes jealous. and they worry about things. and they aren't sure they hear god, and they fear god and they love god and they falter and...and...
Forget that i'm still not sure if i believe in god, when these characters are written like this i can believe in THEM. at least in some echo of them. or something.
But his jethro. lord his jethro makes me laugh. and his zeforah(zipporah for people who worry about getting spellings wrong. who am i to tell him he messed it up somehow?) there's always a girl or two who reads the holy writings. why does he write it like this? highly unlikely, but still believable. AND i LIKE it.
He does NOT write his women weak. even his old testament characters. crazy, doncha think?
well, maybe some people would see them as weak, but in the context of the story...
i don't.
his leah and rachel, i don't like as much. but i've been spoiled by anita diamant. for one, i like leah and don't want her to be less loved by jacob(even though in the end he did turn out to be kind of a bastard, didn't he?) and for two, well...there is no two. I like leah. she reminds me of my mother, kind of.
Isn't it odd? I've read the old testament about a billion times and all this time i had no idea why i liked it so much.
i think i get it now.
It's not like everyone in the old testament was an overly pious preaching annoying spastic freak who makes people in this day and time go all stupid and want to preach at me. there were actually some REAL people in it. (by real i don't mean they for sure existed. i mean they weren't like...well...like paul. god i hate paul. freakin paul. anyway)
so that's why i like it. the people in the old testament made mistakes and their mistakes made damn good stories.
and i'm always looking for a good story.
okay, enough about that. :-)
goodnight. |
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